my worst day ever!

lama tak update kat blog kan? sperti biasa alasan is malas and nothing much to story. mr izz pun since he is growing up alhamdulillah sihat sahaja.

actually this is my second night i cannot sleep...tido kejap but suddenly wake up in the middle of the night. cume last night i continue in my bed until otak ni penat kot, tertido sendiri but still bangun paginye a little bit early then usual. and tonight i decided to wake up, freshing up a little bit, and stay up in front of my laptop writing this blog.....derrrrrrrr...tomorrow? i dunno...and suddenly i feel hungry....warghhhhhhh

actually i feel a little bit frustrated because of my miscarriage...it is not by accident but it is my husband and my dad's decision! why, because of my chicken pox!!! why do i have my chicken pox while i am in my early pregnant???? Tuhan nak menguji hambanya dengan pelbagai cara kan? and this is my ujian...either this decision the the right one or not i hope i won't make the big dosa.

there is no life yet in my womb and the doc (o&g specialist) suggest to not take the risk of having this child. the child could be imperfect or if he is perfect physically, he will be imperfect internally and probably his nerve or his brain or anything that can be happen while his mother (me) having a chicken pox in early pregnancy. but that is opinion from the non government klinik (i refer to klinik penawar at kuala perlis and also ins specialist centre at alor setar). in other hand, in the government hospital, they are not suggesting anything accept to take the paracetamol and calamine lotion. some doctor suggest to take an antiviral but that depend of my condition but in my case there is no need of antiviral. 2 doctors of government hospital won't suggest anything but in my 18-20 weeks of pregnancy, they will refer my case to the specialist for detail scan of the baby....well, if anything happen to the baby then we don't have a choice but to accept him as he is right? 18 weeks is already a complete fetus  with a life in it. i wonder if it is a girl or boy. but my gut tells me it is a girl. a girl with imperfect of something? i won't even think of it. but what if this baby is our life saver? our rezeki? our everything? then wouldn't it be miserable not having her around? just thinking of it make my brain spinning like crazy i want  to sleep!

and what if the doc don't really clean up my womb properly? then i will be in trouble! arghhhh i dunno what else to say or to think or whatever....i just hope i can be pregnant again asap to clean up my mind about this miscarriage. and i don't even hold and hug my son for a week now!!!!! because of my chicken pox.....arghhhhhhh

i hate when i have to face this kind of situation! hope this will be the last of my miscarriage....and hope my future pregnancy will be as healthy as my first pregnancy of mr izz. amin. may Allah bless my family and shower us with a lot of His blessing.

Universal Studio Singapore

hari ni nak bercerita tentang USS....holiday aka job trip aka honeymoon :D the date was on 28 december 2012 a month after our wedding.

my husband asked me if wanna join his job trip to UTHM and UTEM meanwhile having fun cross border go to Singapore. and of course i do...yeayyyyyyyyyyyyyy! tak kesah la job trip ke, his outstation ke yg penting if we can save a few ringgits while cuti, it will be awesome...

this is the pamphlet that we got as soon as we entered USS. the old one, the new one got a picture of transformer in it.

dearest husband...seronok dpt akhirnye smpi ke sini :)

right before kami sampai USS, the entrance to sentosa island...manmade island

the USS ticket...according to en suami, this ticet value RM197/pax! wow or is it the whole trip to singapore?...hmmmm

this is me and en suami :) seronok dpt bercuti as newly wed :) tapi lagi seronok klu dpt only two of us

the trademark of universal studio :)

picture in front of the guardian of firaun...kot, according to a friend la

those bags weren't ours...its our friends who switch places untuk main roller coaster. ad byk roller coaster inhere okeyyyyy....we can't manage to bring our goodies inside, untuk letak pada tempat penyimpanan bag tersangat la mahal cos, it value by hour! gileeeee...in dollar ok...so to save the money, kami devide into 2 groups untuk main game. 1 group will main first then the other one akan take care of the goodies.

the weird water bottle!...hahah, thi stime we just entered jurassic park. one of the merchandise selling was this one :) scary huh?

my 2nd favourite picture :)

love these character in madagascar! mr boogiessssssssssssssss

king juliens...remember? i don't hahahha...dislike him

the main character of madagascar

end of trip to USS...there's alot picture taken but, too many to upload here though. so this is the end of USS trip. next is our merlion park trip. because of tracffic jam, getting out from USS at 1700, reach merlion park at almost 1900. 

the view from merlion park of this famous hotel at singapore : marina sand hotel where they have their luxury swimming pool at the top of the building! see how the structure look like papan luncur?...there's the swimming pool. jangan harap la nak bermalam kat situ. mahal okeyyy, hey rate on USD tau...even dollar singapore pun rasenye mcm tak berbaloi. 

this is the famous merlion statue....

permandangan malam kota singa from merlion park...crowded with tall buildings!

last picture...duta iklan coke :)

that's was it our trip to singapore...mainly went to USS so merlion park is a bonus for us :)

notakaki: next is cameron...

IZZ AMIR SOFWAN BIN ISMAIL

welcome to the world!

may i present my new baby boy who was delivered at HUKM on 0156,

IZZ AMIR SOFWAN BIN ISMAIL

nama diberi setelah hampir seminggu  memikirkan nama yang sesuai.

kini genap umur mr izz 11 hari

tali pusat pun da luruh

selamat juga ditahnikkan

tinggal nak cukur rambut je...lebat! 

perlu dicukur before kenduri aqiqahnya nanti

alhamdulillah abah izz sempat menyambut sekali kelahiran mr izz ke dunia dan sempat juga diazan dan di iqamatkan....

syukur sgt2, nak buat sujud syukur boleh ke?...

hmmmm, tunggu suci dari hadas la, moga Allah memberi peringatan untukku membuat sujud syukur kepadaMu

ternyata hadiah paling bermakna untuk hari jadiku serta hadiah ulangtahaun perkahwinan kami yang pertama ;)

notakaki: tak sabar nak update mengenai mr izz pulak....

my baby 2nd gifts

a gift from my eldest sister :) set tilam kekabu...planning on putting in the baby cot. probably a little bit small but that's ok...

notakaki: will my baby sit tight in baby cot?...got to teach him somehow

first gift received!

my baby's first gift received! from my 2nd sister. a pureen hamper :)

1. sepasang baju n seluar panjang
2. 260ml botol susu (definitely pakai after a year)
3. lotion, shampoo, oil and bedak
4. mosquitoes repeller
5. pampers
6. wipers

notakaki: tak sabar nye nak kuakan budak ni!...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 27th!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

seb bek tak terberanak on my birthday...hahahah...risau jugak :) and most importantly, my husband came to see us (me and his child, masih dlm perut) in KL. Just a weekend holiday coz he's got a lot of work to be done before taking quite a leave when it is time for his child to see the world....

my holiday is full of joy :)) glad to see him in front of me, next to me, holding my hand, hug me...miss him already....but the sacrifice must be made....

ok, my birthday present?...from him was a bouquet of flowers (without decoration), a night t-shirt (not gown okeyyyy) and strawberry which i convert into snow pudding...in here : snow-pudding . and another one is  from my father is a secret recipe cake. my sister bought a banana chocolate for ME....actually for the whole family. that's it...and also a lot of wishing from friends in facebook...TQ guys/girls :)) already 27 can't believe it....uwaaaaaaaaaaaa....so me and my first child (wahhhh first gituuu, planning nak berapa org kak? hahaha) would be 27 yrs different...by the time he/she enter university (hopefully) i already 45 yrs old...huhu

okey, below was my cake birthday. my husband present cannot be snap because of forgetfulness as the strawberry became a pudding, the flower is not fresh as before (planning on keeping them dry) and the tshirt is in washing machine...hahahhaah

notakaki: curious of knowing the birthdate of my child.....?????

Ad 2 checklist!

this month sy ad 2 checklists need to be done:

1. my newborn checklist

2. my move to UTHM johor checklist

alhamdulillah urusan menyewa di Batu Pahat rumah telah pun selesai (telah confirm dengan tuan punye rumah). RM300/month 2 bilik 2 bilik air (1 bilik air, 1 toilet) ade car porch dan ruang belakang tempat sidai kain. ok la...rasenye rumah di kawasan kampung.

surat tawaran dari KPT pun telah selamat diterima kelmarin dan minggu ni agak sibuk berurusan menyiapkan segala jenis borang KPT, tandatangan pegawai, sokongan dekan, mati setem dan penjamin sebelum tarikh luput pada 17 Ogos 2012 nanti.


surat perletakkan jawatan juga telah pun siap dihantar ke jabatan pendaftar tapi terlupa pulak nak buat salinan kepada pihak school....oleh yg demikian, softcopy je la hantar pada steno dekan ;)

persiapan raya?...huhu pertama kali beraya dengan husband, tapi masih lagi sibuk dengan urusan perpindahan office ke kampus tetap dan juga perpindahan ke Batu Pahat. yg smpat pun:
1. kuih raye 3 jenis
2. bercadang membeli kacang di Padang Besar (bile ntah nak p huhu)
3. kerepek (pun taktau nak beli kat mane)
4. kek sarawak (kidnap abang ipar punye, itupun kalau die bawak banyak hehehe)
5. basuh kain langsir...mmmm bile tu? weekend je takde kat rumah

owh terlupe, ade satu lagi checklist: my leaving house checklist....kene buat memandangkan akan meninggalkan rumah denagn jangka masa yg lama sekurang-kurangnya rumah akan molek amat memandang dlm ms seminggu. 

notakaki: ....

Perkara yang Tidak Membatalkan Puasa dalam Bidang Perubatan

Check this out!

for moms, mom-to-be, dad, dad-to-be and muslim....

so jangan ragu2 lagi...kalau ragu2 lagi, please do your advice from ur doctor or ustaz/ustazah.

notakaki: if amik darah tak batal puasa but kene minum air gula before ambik darah tu...hmmmm

LtM (B)

hahaha...taktau nak rase happy ke or sedih ke or kecewa ke....perasaan bercampur baur

balik dr kerja ritu, en suami habaq permohonan untuk penyambungan perkhidmatan dalam angkatan tentera TIDAK diluluskan...en suami mesti kecewa.....takpun happy...hahaha

yg sy pulak, dari segi tugas dan komitmen, happy kot sebab itu la niat asal pun, takmo sambung da cukup sehingga 12 julai 2012 shj. tapi bila pikir balik, all the activities terutama JELAJAH PALAPES dan juga LATIHAN PENTAULIAHAN serta SANTAPAN REJIMANTAL tak dpt join la bersama-sama en suami sbb ketiga2 activities tu la namanya bekerja sambil bercuti :)

akhirnya status LtM(B) berjaya disandang.....wuahahahahahaha

takpe, perjuangan masih diteruskan...berita yang dikhabarkan sebenarnya membawa maksud yg lagi mendalam: tumpuan pada anak, dan pelajaran (master dan phd kelak)....alrite caiyok!!!!...suami? hehehhe...setahun pjj kot insyaAllah phd bersama-sama nnt dengan 2nd child pulak....teeeeeeeeeeeetttttttttttt

org kata dugaan sungguh belajar time ade anak ni tapi niat aje lah hopefully anak tu nnt pun akan terikut jugak nak belajar tinggi/bercita-cita tinggi...

alhamdulillah pentauliahan kali ini dekat aje di UUM so en suami pun, ulang alik je dr rumah ke UUM so takde la kene tinggal 2 minggu dengan en suami....tahun depan pun di UPSI, sy xde berada di UTHM insyaAllah.

HBku rendah!

ingatkan saya ni jenis takde problem sgt time pregnant....ngupe2nye


1. HB sgt low till 13 June 2012 is 9.2! the dose docor was given me is 4 pills/day. huhu, nasib baik pill tu pun not such a strong smell mcm complex b. but 4 pills?...kadang2 tu boleh buat termuntah jugak.


2. BP pun low jugak probably because tido lewat. 


because of these 2 la kot then my colleague selalu kata my face nampak pucat and i always get tired easily plus very sleepy....almost all the time.


3. My teeth isn't as good as i thought ditambah pulak dengan pregnancy...2 times worse sampai doktor tak suggest for cuci because i need to do deep scaling which is require a bius or something that is NOT recommanded for pregnant woman! huhu...the solution is a special ubat gigi for me and a quite expensive toothbrush plus ubat kumur2...kus semangat, pakai duit unimap...hehehe, but da abs for this yr. next time rawatan, need to spend my own money or husband...teeeeetttt hehehhe


notakaki: obimin, amway or shaklee...nak murah obimin la :)

Happy Birthday :)

Tanggal 9 Mei 2012, selamat la en suami berumur 2* tahun....

Selamat menyambut ulangtahun kelahiran my dear husband :) lama tak rasenye tak update blog, so i will start with this wishing. mengenai hadiah, biarla ianya menjadi rahsia tapi hadiah paling besar adalah his coming child....and wishing paling bermakna adalah semoga dia dilahirkankan dengan selamat, sihat dan sempurna segala segi dan sifat....amin

notakaki: nothing to say....saya berada di johor, en suami berada di perlis...huhu sekian.

sickness

happy with your appearance
glad you already be there
thanks to Allah for give me this opportunity

may this sickness end as soon as possible
and can run this home as normal as i can
although the cooking is not as good as my two moms

dizziness, throwing food up, sleepiness sickness
really make my day totally off, shut down
cannot imagine some people were worse than me while i am in this situation enough.

hopefully 3 months are enough for this sickness that  to come not all the time


notakaki: dizzy again, need to sleep

Alhamdulillah...for the first time saya tak throw away food from my stomach :)) hahahha dalam kata len muntah! euwwwww...hopefully keadaan berlarutan la selama yg boleh hehehhe...i hate muntah uweeekkkkk...

3 berita yang mengumbirakan:

berita yang pertama adalah berita ke'positive'an bacaan pregnenct test....setelah byk kali test menunjukan bacaan positive, tiba2 time nak buat buku merah pulak dalam system kata negative...biar betui! mane pegi anak aku ni?...waaaaaaaaaa...test sekali lagi rupenye kesilapan pengurusan, banyak sgt ke test ritu smpi aku punye tersilap.test urine org len masuk dlm rekod aku tak?...aduiiii...
lama jugak nak buat buku tu yek...almost 4 hours total!!! buku rekod kesihatan yang perlu aku bawa setiap kali checkup sehinggalah anak lahir...nnt da lahir buku len pulak bukak kaler biru pulak...hahaha...pink dan biru sesuai la sgttttttt....semoga dilahirkan dalam keadaan sihat dan cukup sempurna sifat fizikal serta akhlaknya.amin...

berita yang ke-2 pulak adalah berita mengenai penerimaan anugerah perkhidmatan cemerlang 2011 kategori rps...sebuah jam tangan jenama SEIKO, sijil penghargaan (siap frame gitu) dan wang tunai berjumlah RMxxx...yang penting SKT tahun ni hendaklah melebihi SKT tahun-tahun lepas...target 95 above.waaahhhh....target pulak untuk dpt anugerah perkhidmatan cemerlang tahun 2012, boleh dpt tunai double dari yang ini.wakakakka....mata duitan sungguh mom to be ni hahahha....tapi disebabkan sickness aku dtg pada malam hari, so, majlis tu pun hadir tak habis pun...dapt je hadiah terus balik...hahaha, tak patut sungguh tapi nak buat guano, daripada aku dok uwek uwek kat meja tu...org keliling tgk pun tak sedap....

last sekali berita pasal pertukaran mode pengajian daripada part time ke full time telah diluluskan cume tunggu result SLAB aje. dan jika lulus jugak sayonara to part timers, will enter UTHM as full time student on September 2012...if not, it's still ok and i will continue as a part timer...lebih byk menghabiskan masa bersama yang tersayang terutama selama berpantang nnt...waaahhhh semoga segalanya sihat walafiat amin.

notakaki: hopefully time will go faster and end this period as soon as it can be...tunggu je la 2-3 bulan lagi....waaaaaaaaaaaaa

Trimester Yg Sgt Bzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....

huhu,

dugaan sungguh kali ni....with master classes almost every weekend, nasib baik en suami pun bz jgak weekend :)   ditambah dengan pembawakan pulak nnt...Ya Allah Kau kuatkan hati ini dalam menempuh liku-liku kehidupan.

harapn denagn sesi pembelajaran ni boleh la anak sy pun mempunyai otak yg geliga...cewahhhh gituuu hahahahah...

anyway, recently en suami suruh active semula palapes! oh nooooooooo....say no to )(*&^%$ hahahha...takde la its just i am not interested anymore, mcm mane nak active...aduiiiii...kalau takde kelas pun biarla sy duduk rumah je...lagi best heheheh

so Allah telah memberikan 2 good news in just a week!...Alhamdulillah :) hope it will be a good news along the way...amin

notakaki: semoga tidak ku riak dan juga tidak ku terlalu gembira dengan berita ini. apa-apa boleh terjadi and hopefully yang terjadi itu adalah perkara yang menyenangkan.

Selamat Pengantin Baru to Me!

tara!!!...ini la my lovely husband :) his name is Leftenan I***** I****** no tentera ******* hahahahah...mane leh gtau, rahsia terpelihara

picture taken from our TK...P.M Mejar Zaliman Bin Sauli

selamat suda majlis di kedua2 belah pihak....

26hb November 2011 - berlansungnya majlis akad nikah di Masjid Al-Ubudiah, Ampang dengan diwalikan sendiri oleh Hj Khalid A. Hamzah

27hb November 2011 - Reception di Dewan Serbaguna presint 11 di putrajaya

03 Disember 2011 - Reception di Kg Telok Cengai, Alor Setar, Kedah. Special majlis bertandang dengan adat istiadat ketenteraan. tak pernah terlintas di fikiran akan melansungkan hari bahagia dengan diiringi sword barrel. it is just a dream comes true...thank you en suami :)

kepada rakan2 yang hadir, terima kasih banyak2 kerana memeriahkan lagi majlis kami yang tak seberapa ini. insyaAllah berkat doa kalian akan kami pertahankan pertalian ini sehingga ke syurga hendaknya...amin

notakaki: tgh tunggu pictures from photographers from both side 

My Wedding Guest Book

utamakan tetamu...jadi ini lah yang sy akan buat untuk first entry about my wedding.

tara! ini la guest book saya :) ingat tak saya pernah mention dulu di sini, walaupun tidak secanggih dan semeriah buku org lain tapi, kehadiran dan kata2 didalamnya sgt2 bermakna buat saya dan suami...suami????...hahaha, yeaaaaaaaaaaa sy da kawen!!! rindu pada en suami la...huhu

sebenarnye gambar ni pun saya kidnap dari adik sepupu (anak pada mak lang, adik kepada ayah saya). da die rajin upload gambar dlm fb sy pun malas nak transfer gambar so, amik je la die punye...hahahah, pemalas sungguh pengantin ni :p

owh ya, en suami sekarang ni da ade gelaran baru buat family di mersing: SRK aka Shah Rukh Khan! hehehehe, dasat la suami sy ni, ade iras2 SRK ke? hmmmmm....

notakaki: kepada en suami, tlg ingatkan saya..........

butterfly

wharever it is....

there is butterfly flying freely in my stomach! 

notakaki: just a metaphore

Just a few weeks away...

Assalammualaikum wbt and Salam 1 Malaysia!

sebenarnye takde ape pun nak update just....THE STATUS CHANGING IS JUST AROUND THE CORNER!!!

really2 hope the event went smooth as plan. amin

tik tok tik tok tik tok tik tok tik tok.....

oh yes, my wedding guest book already siap :) will have it next week insyaAllah. sgt gumbira berkerjasama dengan org yang cepat dan update. the guest book can be search here : http://sweetdesigncreative.blogspot.com/

it is something for our old day memoir :)

look into the future...

perjalanan masih jauh

tempuhi ranjau-ranjau kehidupan dengan penuh kesabaran dan keimanan

teruskan perjuangan

jangan alpa dan leka

toleh kebelakang hanya untuk menambil iktibar dari sejarah yang tidak mungkin akan berulang

terlalu banyak ilmu yang masih boleh didalami

terlalu banyak kata-kata yang masih ingin diucapkan

terlalu banyak perlara yang ingin dilakukan

terlalu banyak

terlalu banyak

tetapi, kehidupan masih perlu teruskan

kehidupan masa akan datang tidak ketahuan

yang pasti berimanlah dengan qada' dan qadar

rukun iman yang ke-6

insyaAllah Allah menjanjikan yang terbaik buat umatNya

"jagalah Allah maka Allah akan menjaga keseluruhan kehidupan kita"

notakaki: hati ooooo hati...boleh tak dok senyap2

Sticker

haha, kali ni entry betul2 mine :)

tara! terbongkar suda rahsia nama en tunang...hehehe. terbongkar juga tarikh majlis kami. hak ni mmg tak dapek nak highlight sebab byk sgt nak kene highlightnye nnt. so biaq p la...bukan org len pun :)

tempahan khas from me to you (the guests). sticker transparent ala2 thank you tag la untuk dilekatkan pada doorgift. so, where can u guys/girls can order this sticker? singgah lah https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1747703477&sk=info (hanya untuk mereka yg ada akaun fb)

service top! cepat sampai asalkan full payment. biasa la beli online, u will get untill full payment :) rege plak RM0.10 sekeping...jadi, harapnye pandaila matematik untuk mengira bapa byk u all nak. takpun pakai je calculator.hehehe....

ade satu lagi service sticker yg mmg BEST! http://kekotakku.blogspot.com/....antara contoh depa, taken from my friend yang kebetulan meraikan majlis die pada hari yg sama

this is she got promo price for RM0.10/pc.........waaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh! sama rege ngan sy punyeeeee..but the exact price u all terpakse la ty tuan punye kedai. :)


notakaki: teringin nak beli sticker lagi besar :D dlm proses memujuk kakak...hahaha